Today, October 4th, marks the 1-year anniversary of leaving Techstars, an org that I helped birth, that I spent 14 years at, an org that has my fingerprints all over it, from the content taught in the program to the way the accelerators are run. When you spend so long on something, it becomes part of you. You become part of it. And it can be hard to separate the two, which is one of the reasons I left. It was time.
The last year has been a time of rest and recovery, and with some space from it, I have tremendous gratitude for my time and experience there. For David Cohen who saw something in me that I’m not sure I saw in myself and whose deep trust and belief formed the foundation of how I want to work with others. For David Brown, who put up with me and my ever-changing demands at work. For Brad Feld, the ultimate mentor, philosopher, and investor, your words ring in my head often. For Jason Seats, my best friend and partner in crime and work, and someone I dearly miss working alongside every. single. day. For so many people.
I had no idea it would take almost 8 months before I stopped waking up feeling anxious that I was missing something important. It took a concentrated effort to let go of the judgment by people who discovered I was of no use to them. Their looks usually meant one of two things: 1) oh, you’re one of those people who don’t work or 2) I can’t get anything from you? NEXT. It took a while to discover what was interesting to me again, to see who I wanted to spend time with versus having to spend time with. It took some self-examination to not tie my self-esteem to a fancy title or a big company. It took some time to catch up on life projects that I always meant to get around to, and then realized I would never actually get around to them, and the freedom that comes with just removing them and most of the other bullsh*t from my to-do list. It took a while to see the horizon again, rather than only my feet or the rearview mirror.
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